I have a rant I need to let it out and just to let you know it's just a rant.
Growing up, I have been so used to kids hanging out with me for a day and then don't even know me the next.
I hated trying to make friends cause they can't come over dues to piles of chores or they have better friends than me. I was so shy and I was hard to get to know, that is okay cause I grew out of that and now ... it's still the same.
I hate when friends hang out with me for a day and I don't hear from them for a month or two or years. I do get jealous cause I fear I am not a good friend and they like someone else better than me. I know that cause I can see it through that friend of mine.
I hate it when friends call me and say after we are done talking or cut off and that friend will say "I'll call you back" and I don't hear from them for a day or two or a month. Like I said, I am used to it.
I no longer call my friends, if they want to talk to me, call me, cause that tells me they are thinking of me at that moment.
I no longer visit my friends, cause they are too busy to visit me, if they do, then makes me happy cause they want to be my friend for the day.
I no longer instant message friends on aim or msn cause I know I am bothering them or don't want to talk to me.
If you instant massage me, I will gladly talk to you cause you are bored and you thought of me for a second.
I hate making friends cause I do fear I will no longer see them again. I will see an old friend who I haven't seen in years and then don't hear or see her/him in a month or years. That's ok. I'm used to it.
I decided to post this instead of my "space" and vox cause I just want everyone to see
Feel free to comment. Thanks for your time.
